#acceptance

I prop myself up

Sometimes I find it helpful to provide myself many sources of inspiration, to keep me reminded of the aspiration of my higher self. I leave myself little affirmations on the dresser or on the kitchen table. I leave a tab open on my browser to a page with an article about mindfulness. I cut out…

#depression

Unreasonable

Today I’m being unreasonable. I know it. I also know that “all my feelings are acceptable,” even the unreasonable ones. So this evening, I’m trying to find some kind of balance between allowing myself to pout and fret because things are changing in a way I don’t want and accepting that things have to change.

#sexed #puberty #lovemybod

The 6th Grader Watches Her Sex-Ed Videos

Dear Wise Woman, Tonight I watched those puberty videos you told me about. First I was only going to watch one and see how it was, but it was so interesting I ended up watching all eight of them. It was kind of embarrassing that they showed real people’s bodies. And she actually touched some…

Fretful

I wake up at 4 am, again this morning. I turn away from the alarm clock and press myself against my husband. Don’t think, I tell myself. Don’t think, and maybe you can go back to sleep. It doesn’t work. Deep, restful sleep is a phantom, a fairy maybe, flitting among the gradually greening trees,…

Something Else I’m Doing For the Girl

Back a few weeks ago, before a bunch of family stuff and getting triggered and another round of venlafaxine withdrawal derailed me, I was venturing into the treacherous but oh-so-important territory of sex. I’d had several therapy sessions with E, in which I explained to her that I couldn’t stay present during sex with my…