Faulty Antennae

I ask myself sometimes, why do I have so many abuse stories? Different men, different periods of my life, child, teen, adult. It’s easy to slide into thinking: I’m such a pathetic loser and never learn. Yeah, I know, not so helpful. In fact, I think two things have gone on in my life: I sort…

Day 65 – Weird Things Happen

So I’m in the hospital. I feel okay now but still have to stay overnight. I went to work this morning exhausted, feeling kind of depressed but relieved it was Friday night. I was looking forward to the glass of wine and some Netflix time with my husband in the evening. Instead, while at work about…

Day 64 – Ugh

Depression is getting louder. I’m agitated but at the same time exhausted. The exhaustion is overwhelming. I’m glad I’ll be taking a leave, but it doesn’t start until October 1, and it’s hard to imagine how I’ll keep going until then. Thoughts of harming myself have suddenly grown powerful again. I don’t know why. Work…