#therapy #vulnerable

Won’t Touch Me

I love my therapist; she’s smart, skilled, caring, insightful, grounded, and just a good, decent person. And maybe after all these years, I’m done working with her. I know this is driven by hurt, so I want to slow down, take a breath, and think it through. It’s not¬†only¬†about wanting to put up an emotional…

#anxiety #attachment

Can I Tolerate My Own Neediness?

I’m sick. The last two days, I have either been in bed or sitting on the toilet, as some virus wrings my guts out. I know, yuck, right? I almost didn’t write it because I didn’t want to gross you all out. Yesterday, it wasn’t all that bad, but today I’ve been quite miserable. And…

Therapy Retreat, Part IV

Continued from Part III. I get about 20 minutes sleep, and it’s time for the group to meet again. We all bring our collages, which are about as different as they can be. E has us put a piece of blank paper with our collage and pass it to the right. We look at the…

#therapy #grouptherapy

Therapy Retreat, Part I

I spent last weekend at a women’s retreat run by my therapist, and it was a very big deal to me. It’s only this afternoon (Tuesday) that I have started to have room for thoughts about anything but the emotional impact of the past few days. How can I tell you about it? I’ve turned…

#re-awakening #healing #mindfulness

Re-Awakening

It’s Saturday morning. I have eaten a quick breakfast, no lingering over tea today. I pack myself a lunch and tuck a notebook into my purse. Today I am attending a workshop on Mindful Writing. It’s something I’ve often thought about doing, but until now, I’ve always talked myself out of it. Today I walk…