“I’m Having A Hard Time Right Now…”

That’s a line from a short guided meditation I like that aims to acknowledge an upset and help regain balance. It’s in my head these days though. I am, in fact having a hard time. I had six pretty good days in a row last week, which was so encouraging. For most of this year,…

No Major Decisions

My energy is scattered around, and I don’t even know how I’m feeling. Or I’m feeling everything at the same time. I’m doing well, I’ll think. Though I woke up Tuesday morning shaken by nightmares and with the odd tingly sensation I often get when triggered, I settled myself down. I spent a quiet day…

A Look Back

As my first marriage crumbled (many years ago), I became deeply depressed. Also at this same time, I started having my first memories of sexual abuse, some of them clear, some of them fuzzy (and which I have only recently decided to believe). Sometimes looking back helps me see how far I have come but also to…