Baby Steps

Monday afternoon, and E is back from her training on self-care. I’ve forewarned her that I’ve lost my enthusiasm for exploring the bat caves, that is, the darker recesses of my psyche. And she in turn has indicated she has every confidence we can get back in there. So there we are, smiling at each…

Damn Those Interruptions in Therapy

Just when you screw up your courage and get some momentum going on a tough topic in therapy, kaboom! Your therapist decides she has to go away to a professional workshop for a week. Her departure feels like a bomb exploding in the middle of road, leaving a crater and completely disrupting your therapeutic journey.…

“I’m Having A Hard Time Right Now…”

That’s a line from a short guided meditation I like that aims to acknowledge an upset and help regain balance. It’s in my head these days though. I am, in fact having a hard time. I had six pretty good days in a row last week, which was so encouraging. For most of this year,…

No Major Decisions

My energy is scattered around, and I don’t even know how I’m feeling. Or I’m feeling everything at the same time. I’m doing well, I’ll think. Though I woke up Tuesday morning shaken by nightmares and with the odd tingly sensation I often get when triggered, I settled myself down. I spent a quiet day…

Who is My Mother? Part III (Sort of)

Ah, clearly I’ve been working myself up to Part III, my mother in my teenage years. And now that I’m here, I want to back out. Never mind, I think. It’s all old news, anyway. She did what she felt she could at the time, and some of it wasn’t enough for me. End of story. Though of…