Two Conversations I’m Having With Myself This Week and One I’m Not Quite Ready to Have

I have conversations with myself or different parts of myself, inside my head. I suppose I’ve always done this–we all do, I guess. Those conversations used to be a lot of oh, you are so stupid, you are so bad. But I’ve made a very conscious effort this year to speak kindly to myself. This…

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Unreasonable

Today I’m being unreasonable. I know it. I also know that “all my feelings are acceptable,” even the unreasonable ones. So this evening, I’m trying to find some kind of balance between allowing myself to pout and fret because things are changing in a way I don’t want and accepting that things have to change.

What’s New?

I have a lot of different things going on and haven’t posted for a while (nearly 2 weeks). I’m also exhausted and uninspired, so I’m just going to make a list of some things that are going on. Last Thursday was my last day at work after 16 years and 9 months at the same company. For…

Rejecting Samsara, or Preferring Life to Death

A lot of the time, we keep on doing the same things, over and over, even though they don’t serve us well. Those habits are so deeply familiar that they feel safe to us, though in fact they kill off our spirit, deaden our ability to love the world. The futile continuation of these habits is called samsara in…

The Many Faces of Self-Loathing

Self-Loathing has taken up residence in my emotional house. I allowed her to do this back in June, working on the premise that she’s a part of my emotional make up, after all. And I suppose I wished she’d be positively influenced by spending time with Joy and Compassion. She hasn’t developed in quite the…